Trust

Todd and I have always wanted to be parents and now that we are, we realize there is no greater joy and we LOVE it! In our case, becoming parents has not been an easy road, but we know it is the path God chose for us. He has made that evident and has guided us each step of the way. We have been talking for a while now about adding to our family. But since that is not as easy as just getting pregnant, I have struggled quite a bit. I tend to overanalyze things and find all the negatives and reasons for things not to work instead of simply having faith. I have really been praying for God to show us what His will is for us and I feel like that in the past 2 weeks, He has done just that.
Our first adoption experience was amazing-there are no doubts about that. In fact, I love sharing Camden's story to anyone and everyone who will listen. I have worried that there is no way another adoption could measure up-but I feel God is telling me-Let me show you what I can do.
Our message last Sunday was "Seeing the Unseen" and wow, did I feel like that was a message meant for me! Pastor Chad Everett, visiting from a church in Illinois, challenged us to believe it before you see it. He said "You don't have to make it happen you just have to see it and believe it." I have to put my trust in Jehovah Jireh, my God who see and provides. He knows the desire of our heart to be parents again and he will be faithful.
Then yesterday, the words of a worship song we sang just really spoke to me:
"God I look to You, I won’t be overwhelmed
 Give me vision to see things like You do 
 God I look to You, You’re where my help comes from
 Give me wisdom; You know just what to do ..."
When I doubt and worry-about whether it will happen, will it be soon, what if Camden gets older and there is a big difference in their ages, will we have another awesome experience, will the birthmom change her mind, can we afford it again and all the MANY other questions that come with adoption-I need to be still and believe. Believe that my God is big enough and will comfort my heart. Even as I type this, He is saying, "I've got this, Andrea. Just trust me..."
So, as we begin our second adoption, I will trust Him and believe!